I have made a decision to take anti-depressants.  After a lot of research on the internet and a lot of soul searching, I think this is the best route for me.  This is very unusual for me since I avoid medication unless necessary.  During my first pregnancy, I was prescribed some heavy duty pain killers.  I took them once and did not like how it made me feel out of control.  With my second pregnancy, the doctor offered and I told him to not waste his time writing the prescription.  I do not take over the counter drugs unless my cold is bad or I am in real pain.  My adversity to drugs has been control.  I do not even like drinking to much for fear of losing control.  I have never taken any drugs for the fear of losing control.  But I am now experience loss of control.  I get angry and sad for no real good reason.  I feel like an animal caught in a bag.  It is hard to see and all these things are poking at me making me mad.  I can’t tell what is poking me or why, it just makes me mad.  I know something is wrong.  Normal things are poking at me and making me mad.  

My instincts are telling me something is wrong.  I am not coping like I should.  Knowing this, I went to visit a doctor of my friends who had prescribed her anti-depressants, knowing there was a high chance she would do the same for me.  

It has been almost 4 weeks.  She said it would take about that long for the effects to show.  I could tell a difference last week.  I am not getting “poked” as much.  And this is a good thing.

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